Just wanted to extend my gratitude to all of you, my friends, for the support. Kind words and caring gestures go a long way, we made it through some waves of emotions with the support of everyone around me. We are comforted.
I am getting back into my swing of life. Long walks, climbing, friends, trip planning and job seeking. School is on my mind as I try and establish myself, root myself and grow as a person before I have another little person growing in me.
I recently shared that we miscarried a few weeks back. I was eager and excited, shared the news with family and friends within weeks of getting the news.We were hesitant but I was thrilled and couldn't wait a minute longer to share the possibility that we had a little one on the way. I knew that miscarrying was a very real threat but that was the other 20% of people, not me. Turns out we are the 20%, someone has to be, I just never thought it would be us. I am here to tell you that it happens, it happens to real people, normal people. And guess what, you live through it. It is hard and it hurts physically, emotionally and let me tell you that it challenged us spiritually more than I thought possible. When It is all said and done, we were left with each other which is more than I could ever ask for. We gained perspective, compassion and patience. Patience.
Life throws curve balls to everyone. We all face battles big and small. In the big picture of life, we each have mountains to climb and wars to wage. There will be times of conflict and times of peace. Leave the judging up to God because you never know what someone is facing on the inside.
Beautiful photography. So glad you are taking time to care for yourself and mourn. When we went through our loss-a friend bought me some beautiful flowers, put them on my desk at work and a note that said she loved us. I will never forget that. Wishing you quietness and strength.
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those a very welcoming words. thank you from the bottom of my heart.
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ReplyDeleteOh Michelle, I had no idea! I hadn't been doing any blogging or reading any blogs in quite a while until today. I am so, so sorry. I know how hard it is to lose a child. I lost two myself, one at 3 months pregnant and another at 5 months pregnant. It takes time to heal and mourn the loss of a baby and the dreams you had for this child. This little one will always have a special place in your hearts. Take care sweetie
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